FocusPositives

In all you do, do it with a reserved heart. Have passion and drive for what you do. Give it your 100% and more if you have extra energy. Remember though… life is an evolution. Things change and  people change. Learn to change and learn to let go. Circumstances and facts cannot be changed but you can change. Nothing is worth more then your health and happiness. As long as one lives anything is possible. So pursue all your dreams with vigor but remember to love yourself, cherish yourself and take care of  yourself no matter what the outcomes are.

~ Inspired by Leslie Cheung, my first and only idol.

Have you ever had one of those moments? You are feeling  fine, happy, mellow. Then, Wham! It hits you in the middle of the night. You are all alone in the dark… knitting, in my case :p. I started to wonder where my life is headed. Thoughts quickly spirals from one to another, thoughts that didn’t go anywhere but down. I looked on chat to see if I can talk to a friend, none. I pick up the cellphone, no batteries…and no charger ( I forgot it at home and I am at my rental room)…Aiya… so sad. I turn on my favorite Chinese drama online where it’s been stuck at a stand still for the past hour, it starts to plays to my surprise. The characters continued the scene. A chubby man and a cute lady were locked in a cellar by accident. The woman, scared crazy, was screaming madly for help. The chubby man speaks with a gentle robust voice (I’ll try to translate as best as I can), “A lot of times we seek out trouble. Sometimes we can not think through our thoughts. Then stop, don’t think, sleep and when awaken, think again.” He was like a Zen master who knew exactly what I was feeling at the moment. Although the movie scene was a bit disconnected, it spoke to me directly. “Problems will always come and go, just don’t dwell on it when you can’t solve it right away, take time, be patient, and slowly they will be solved”, that’s what translated to me when I heard him speak.

Being laid off many times left me stressed out with insomnia for the past 2 year. Even with a job I couldn’t sleep sometimes. It was odd how a few words at the right moment can settle storms within. In least expected places, minute things and words are surrounding, comforting and encouraging us. Pay attention to them, hold on to them, and use them to your advantage. I took his advice and slept like a baby last night.

“It is easy to be a designer, but not easy to stay as one, and even more difficult to be a successful one.”

~ Winnin Lim of  Defragment Me

Oddly I find this comforting. I don’t feel so alone and my tank got filled a little, just enough for me take one more step ahead. Thanks you Winnin.

Last night I woke up half asleep. In that fuzzy moment a clear thought came to me, “God gave us a free will to choose, you can be happy no matter what“. Half recalled from the Bible and half from a book’s title by Richard Carlson. This new found energy, a freedom of choice in my attitude and feelings, flooded me in the middle of my sleep. The two odd combination reminded me, many years ago, of a similar experienced. During a speech class, in junior college, I heard my favorite quote “Attitude” by Charles Swindoll. It made a 180° shift in my perspective on how I should face life. “Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.” It hit me deep in the heart. In that moment I really wanted to live with this attitude.

Slowly the want to change faded in and out of my mind. Many years have past and I am still bond by my old ways of thinking and doing things. In fact it’s been over 10 years and I have not progressed. My procrastination paired with my lack of memory held me from learning from my past mistakes. Today, I choose to take action by focusing and recording the positives daily. I aim at transforming one thought at a time. This blog will serve as a personal collection of all positive influences, reminding me, all that’s goods in my life. And, so, I start with this thought from my sleep.